things I find myself wondering at three a.m.
where is Merle buried? was he?
did Daryl give him a warrior’s funeral, an irreligious funeral, burn his body while he watched until the sky got dark and Rick arrived to take him home?
did he dig him an unmarked grave, because Merle was never one for sentiment, or did he carve his name into a marker and leave it to be lost and forgotten in the earth?
did he go back over the winter months and sit graveside or did he take pains not to walk that way, to ignore the building’s silhouette on the horizon?
did he carry him home?
did Rick and Glenn meet him halfway, getting sick with worry as it gets dark, help him pull the body into the truck bed where Daryl sat with it the ride back? did they bury him at the prison, because despite everything this was Daryl’s blood, and Daryl is theirs?
did Daryl come home that night? did Michonne and Rick walk out the next morning at dawn, find him walking down the road and numb quiet and spattered in his brother’s blood? did they know what happened, looking at him? did they know who killed him and who stopped him moving both? or did he have to say the words?
did he have to say “Merle’s gone”, or did they look at him and Rick reach out and clasp a hand on his shoulder, pull him in to his side, and walk him back with an arm around him and not a word